Twelve years ago, I turned in a yoga pose and had a realization that I'd been holding one specific person out of my heart for over a decade. I remember the pose. It hit my like a flash of lightning. Moments later, I was bawling on my yoga mat. I bawled for the rest of class, and at the end of class, everyone left my there and went off to breakfast.
This was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
It was the moment I realized that despite the emotional upset I had experienced in my past, I now held myself in my body in a very specific way that kept that pattern having an influence over me. I was allowing something from the past to stay in my body, and it had power over me, until I released it. After I went back to school to study Ayurveda, I realized that how the muscles are holding us is only the tip of the iceberg.
For many years, I thought it was the pose that shifted it, but the pose just allowed me to see it. The fact that I allowed myself to cry once seeing the wound... well that was a big part of the cleanse.
We're all holding psycho-emotional patterns at a cellular level. No, we are holding them at at even more subtle level, more subtle than molecular. Conventional medicine has not yet provided the avenues to work on this. Neuroscientists try to explain it, as do physicists, but because we've segmented medicine by mind and body, and removed spirit in the Western framework, it's virtually impossible to do pattern-shifting healing work in conventional medicine unless you have a strong internal practice where you are making sense of everything in your body.
Noticing is the very first part of shifting any pattern...
Patterns get more ingrained the longer they exist and are reinforced. This is one of the reasons we tend to have the trickiest issues with family members and loved ones.
But we can change the state of our body in order to change the psycho-emotional patterns. This is one of the things that happens in Ayurvedic cleansing.
If you want to explore what it's like to feel through the patterns that you may be holding onto, then you can try meditating on one of your family members, and you will see what comes up in your body.
You might pick a family member that you have a positive relationship with or a negative one. The important thing is to notice how the relationship it's impacting your experience of your body.
Have you ever done this before?
Please connect and share your experience!